Dear Future Husband

A letter to my soulmate

“The mere existence of you gives me hope”

My Sweetheart,

I am writing you today because I am thinking of the day when I will give you this letter. I do not know you yet, but my soul is searching for you. I believe that in this life we have many purposes. To worship and love our creator, to follow our heart, and connect with our soulmate. I am seeking a closer relationship with God right now. I am learning to be patient and trust God's plan. My heart has always pulled me to be a mother and a wife. That's where my heart always feels at home. Surrounded by children and filled with love and laughter. I have three amazing children that bring me so much joy and purpose. Now I am on the path of becoming the best version of me for them and myself. I'm hoping and praying that on this path I will find you. I'm not sure what kind of pain, past, struggles, love, and experiences you have went through by now. Just know that I will love you unconditionally. All of what you went through has made you the man you are today and has brought us together. I do wish that we were high school sweethearts and that you were the only one I would have ever kissed. That you were all I would have ever known. How I wish I would have been able to grow up with you by myside. I guess that wasn't part of God's plan for us. For some reason we have had to go through many trials and I think one of the reasons is so when we find each other we would have no doubt that we were meant to be. The struggles and the tears washed our eyes so we could see each other clear as day. You are my person, you are my forever home. You are the reason my heart has felt restlessness. Why I have always needed more. I have so much love to give and have been waiting to give it to you. I don't expect perfect, not even close. I want the messy, sleepy eyes, and the real conversations. I want you to tell me what you need to feel loved, supported, and your personal goals/dreams. I will be your best friend and want to support you in all you do. I want you to know you will never feel alone or not loved again. I will love every freckle, scar, and gray hair. I will be in love with your soul. I seek to grow with you religiously. I want our faith to keep us focused on what matters. No matter what comes our way I am not walking away. I want forever with you and even then I am sure it wouldn't be enough. This world can put a lot of stress on relationships. I will do everything I can to protect us and our family. No person, job, social media will risk hurting our relationship and the life we are building. You will forever be the most attractive person in the world to me. In a room full of so called 10's I would look for you. No one would ever compare because they aren't you. They don't have your smile, our hands wouldn't fit like ours, and the connection wouldn't even be close. We were meant to be. You are part of God's plan for me. How amazing does that sound. Looking at my children they are a clear sign of God's blessing and God's plan. Now looking at you it is the same. You were written for me and I was written for you. If you have a child/children know that I will be there for them always. I will do everything I can for them and make sure they feel loved and supported. I promise that my heart will love them like my own. I know that our story is probably much different than the one we thought we would have growing up, but it is ours. The timeline might be longer but at the end of the day we got our happily ever after. We never gave up looking for each other. We didn't settle for a relationship that wasn't full of the love and connection we were made for. It's you and me now. I hope by now I have healed from abandonment issues and feelings of not being enough. If I haven't by now I want you to know I am working on it. I will lower my walls and let you in. I will trust you with my heart. I will not allow past issues to affect our present or our future. I will give myself fully to you and freely. I have waited my whole life to find you and I have been looking forward to this day. To know what home smells like as I lay my head on your chest. Thank you for never giving up on looking for me. Thank you for following your heart.